Lost Love

Yesterday I received a message from my daddy.

This message makes me thinking of my previous memories.

I am thinking of,

When the time I am still living in the happiness family and sweet home.

He wrote:

“Tonight again, I keep on looking at Ah B (my younger sister) bed and thinking of her a lot. She was so cute, I hope your mum don’t bit her a lot, the very wrong thing I done is not her fault, hope your mum love her a lot. Now I am very afraid to get back home, because every time at home, I so difficult to sleep, because thinking of you all. God bless you all.”

At that second, I cried out.

Why everything just changed at the way that I dislike?

Why my home just gone at a night?

I just hope I can have a family! Just a simple family!

But, this happiness doesn’t happen to me again from one year ago.

I know,

I lost my love one, everything.

I thought I was so tough that I can get through all those difficulties…

Formerly, I did not.

I just tried to escape my own feeling.

I know, no matter how hard I tried before,

I am still cannot forget what I belonged before, and what I loss now.

I am so stress!

I hate to be eldest; I hate I have to be the sober one in this family.

I have to bear all the responsibility; I have to take care of family feelings,

And ignore my own feeling!

No matter how sad I am, I had to swallow a breath.

This is because I am the least qualified person to be sad.

Dad,

I dont dare to get back home also.

I will be called in mind about my past time.

Laugh and joyful that I belonged will surrounding around my mind,

You gave everything to me, but also took everything from me.

I feel like want to hate you, but I can’t!

What the only thing that I got from you was:

My Happiness was short-lived!

: : I will never forget : :

My Christmas 2009

Merry Christmas!

On the 25^th December 2009,

My mum and my relatives came to KL shopping.

Early in the morning, 10.30am I think, she phoned me up.

Well, I was tOo tired!

But still “gave my mum face”, woke up and cleaned myself.

Quickly went to the Bukit Bintang and find them.

Yish! I missed an expensive lunch with them! =.=”

And,

I accompanied them to the Lot 10 and Pavillion.

Pavillion was too crowded that day, full of shoppers!

I think most of them will be the tourists,

Because now is the holiday season!

Those tourists keep taking photos here and there…

Hmmm…huge crowd of people,

Lead me no mood to “jalan-jalan”!

: : Buwahaha, I took one picture also in the front door of Pavillion : : (So ugly)

: : My mum! I probably love this poster as the picture background : :

I am too skinny, Haiz!

When can I be more chubby?

I hope I can eat my mum’s cook everyday…

I am really dislike the outside foods! Taste bad!

Okay,

back to my topic.(smile) ^^

The christmas night, I went to find wei feng sisters.

Together took an quite “expensive” dinner and watch movie at Kepong’s Jusco.

: : Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 : :

They are so cute!

I love the Chipettes also! Awesome!

The movie was too short, less than 2 hours.

But, at least, the movie was kinda funny and jolly.

You guys can go to watch it!

This is a comedy movie that can bring up your joy :)

Alright,

This was my 2009 christmas.